I remember as a little girl Christmas was an exciting time. My dad, mom, sister, and I would decorate the tree while listening to Christmas music. We would always go to my Grandma Bohm's house on Christmas Eve and have a wonderful dinner and see tons of family. Then on Christmas morning my little sister and I would wake up to stockings stuffed with goodness and tons of presents under the tree. After opening all of our gifts I would call my best friend Audrey and we would tell each other what we got for Christmas. Next it was off to Grandma Farmer's house for Christmas dinner with the other side of the family. It was a wonderful time of year.
Everything changed the year my mother passed away. It was right before Thanksgiving and right after my sisters birthday. Usually this time of year was the beginning of the best time of year, but not this time. That year it was mostly weird and uncomfortable. Mom wasn't there, although everyone tried to pretend like it was all the same as it always was, it wasn't. I missed her and didn't really know how to deal with it, so I decided I would just hate the holidays and that would make it easier. And for awhile I believe it did.
I went on this way until I was 28 years old. This is when my boyfriend and I decided to get our first apartment together. This is also the first time in a very long time I felt like I had family. My father and I were speaking a lot more than we had in years, and my sister had moved back home. I was once again in contact with my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousin (thanks to social media). I decided my 28th year I would celebrate the holidays and it would be wonderful. It was.
My boyfriend and I decorated our first Christmas tree together and it was amazing. We listened to Christmas music like my family did when I was little. We bought gifts for friends and family and I enjoyed every minute of it. We even hung stockings for our cats!
I do not regret giving up the holidays like I did, but I am so happy to have this special time of year back in my life. I am not a religious person, so I celebrate the commercialism aspect, but I do love how everyone seems to be just a little happier this time of year. I love the getting together with people and sharing meals and drinks. I especially love my dad and my sister coming over Christmas day and having dinner and playing games. Basically, this is a wonderful time of year, and if any of my readers have ever been where I was a few years ago, let it go, and enjoy the Holidays! It will be worth it.
Everything changed the year my mother passed away. It was right before Thanksgiving and right after my sisters birthday. Usually this time of year was the beginning of the best time of year, but not this time. That year it was mostly weird and uncomfortable. Mom wasn't there, although everyone tried to pretend like it was all the same as it always was, it wasn't. I missed her and didn't really know how to deal with it, so I decided I would just hate the holidays and that would make it easier. And for awhile I believe it did.
I went on this way until I was 28 years old. This is when my boyfriend and I decided to get our first apartment together. This is also the first time in a very long time I felt like I had family. My father and I were speaking a lot more than we had in years, and my sister had moved back home. I was once again in contact with my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousin (thanks to social media). I decided my 28th year I would celebrate the holidays and it would be wonderful. It was.
My boyfriend and I decorated our first Christmas tree together and it was amazing. We listened to Christmas music like my family did when I was little. We bought gifts for friends and family and I enjoyed every minute of it. We even hung stockings for our cats!
I do not regret giving up the holidays like I did, but I am so happy to have this special time of year back in my life. I am not a religious person, so I celebrate the commercialism aspect, but I do love how everyone seems to be just a little happier this time of year. I love the getting together with people and sharing meals and drinks. I especially love my dad and my sister coming over Christmas day and having dinner and playing games. Basically, this is a wonderful time of year, and if any of my readers have ever been where I was a few years ago, let it go, and enjoy the Holidays! It will be worth it.
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