I like to deem myself a very friendly and understanding person who does not judge, but I often think about how others see me, and I am not sure they agree. I have quirks just like everyone else, but mine are somewhat odd, and although they even annoy me, I truly mean no harm by them.
Sometimes these so called quirks get in the way of my enjoying an evening with friends. For example, I cannot handle whistling, loud swallowing, chewing, etc. I tend to get very frustrated with myself. As I am sure most people get frustrated with me. My boyfriend (what would I do without him?) puts up with my strange complaints, but do other people? My guess is probably not, so I try to hide how irritated I become when someone does one of these seemingly normal things. I often plug my ears, clear my throat, or anything else to drown out the noise.
Why do these things bother me so much? Why can I not just ignore, or not even hear these things, like other people do? I will probably never know the answer to these questions. I take medication for anxiety, and have been able to calm these things that annoy me to the point sometimes I just want to be alone, but even the meds are not always the answer. Basically, I love all my friends and family, actually just people in general, so if I ever seem to be out of sorts, take no offense. Often it is just my annoying quirks, and believe me, we all have them.
Sometimes these so called quirks get in the way of my enjoying an evening with friends. For example, I cannot handle whistling, loud swallowing, chewing, etc. I tend to get very frustrated with myself. As I am sure most people get frustrated with me. My boyfriend (what would I do without him?) puts up with my strange complaints, but do other people? My guess is probably not, so I try to hide how irritated I become when someone does one of these seemingly normal things. I often plug my ears, clear my throat, or anything else to drown out the noise.
Why do these things bother me so much? Why can I not just ignore, or not even hear these things, like other people do? I will probably never know the answer to these questions. I take medication for anxiety, and have been able to calm these things that annoy me to the point sometimes I just want to be alone, but even the meds are not always the answer. Basically, I love all my friends and family, actually just people in general, so if I ever seem to be out of sorts, take no offense. Often it is just my annoying quirks, and believe me, we all have them.
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